'I really was so disgusted with myself': Nicole Scherzinger reveals she battled with bulimia in her Pussycat Doll days
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She's one of the most attractive singers on the globe, but Nicole Scherzinger hasn't always been so confident about her appearance.
The 34-year-old singer has revealed that she suffered from bulimia during her time in the Pussycat Dolls.
Speaking to VH1 for their Behind The Music series, the pretty star admitted that it was a hard time.
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Opening up: Nicole Scherzinger reveals in an interview with VH1 that she battled bulimia when she was in the Pussycat Dolls
'I just hated myself,' Scherzinger said. 'I really was so disgusted with myself and so embarrassed. I felt so alone. I was in a group, and I never felt so alone in my life.'
The X Factor judge went on to say that she actually suffered from the eating disorder for years and 'did it everyday.'
'Every time I had a second to be alone, I was doing something to myself. You get, like, blisters on your hands or scars on your hands, and I’d try to hide those. I think the girls could tell.
Alone: The pretty star said that she 'hated' herself and was so embarrarssed of what she did
'It’s embarrassing. I never spoke about it. Like I said, I never want to play a victim, and I never wanted my family to hear about things from me because I think it would break their heart, you know,' she added.
'I guess it was like my addiction, right? I never did drugs, but kinda doing things to myself was my addiction. It’s like when I got off stage, I was on this high, and I’d come back to my room and I’d be alone, so I would just do things. My bulimia was my addiction; hurting myself was my addiction.'
In the frank and honest interview, Scherzinger admits that she feels 'nervous' about opening up about that aspect of her past for the first time.
Tough time: Nicole, pictured here outside the ITV studios on Thursday, admitted that bulimia was her 'addiction'
The U.S. star can be seen looking upset and alone in a 30 second clip for the upcoming programme.
It also shows Scherzinger's relatives looking sombre as they reveal she had to 'get help or die.'
After leaving the Pussycat Dolls in 2010 to forge her successful solo career, Scherzinger reveals that music is what saved her.
Not all good: The singer left the girl group in 2010 and added that music saved her
'The music is what saved me,' she says. 'It's the only thing that I can trust.'
But that's not all she opened up about during the candid show.
Nicole also made further revelations about her time in the girl group and claimed that she sang "95 per cent" of the vocals of the Pussycat Dolls songs herself.
Scherzinger has revealed that former bandmates Melody Thornton, Ashley Roberts, Kimberly Wyatt, Jessica Sutta and Carmit Bachar hardly sang on the tracks.
She added; 'I love those girls, they're like my sisters, but people don't even know the story. They have no idea. I was in the centre because I was singing. I was the one singing.
Opening up: Nicole, pictures in London on Friday, also claimed that she sang '95 per cent' of the Pussycat Dolls songs during her time in the band
'I never really talked about it, but I'll never forget I finished the album PCD and [producer] Ron [Fair] and I brought the girls into the studio and we played it for them, and it was the first time they'd ever heard the music."
Nicole continued: 'Do you understand what I'm saying? We played the album for the Pussycat Dolls. It was the first time they'd ever heard the songs.'
And Ron Fair backed up her words, saying: 'Melody sang a bit here and there but the records were Nicole, with the exception of an occasional ad lib. They were Nicole. They were created with her.'
Luckily, the Baby Love singer is in a much happier place nowadays and has even shed light on her romance with Lewis Hamilton.
Speaking to Lorraine Kelly on Thursday, Scherzinger said: 'Me and my lovely man are lovely, that’s what’s going on. Yeah, we’re great.'
Scherzinger is currently a judge on the UK version of X Factor where she is competing with the boys as her contestants.
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